Almost There!

Apologies in advance to anyone who’s been trying to get a hold of me the past few days.

The kitchen is nearly done. Steve and Hank should be coming in today to install the countertops. With countertops done, they can put the sink, dishwasher, and stove back. We just got our flooring put in, so the Fridge can be moved into place now. Between today and tomorrow the kitchen should be completely done. What a relief that will be.

I have been so ridiculously exhausted lately. I feel the weight of various obligations slowly wearing me down. I wake up every morning still tired, I go to bed every night exhausted, if I lay down too long during the day my eyelids get heavy and occasionally close. On one hand, there’s the school obligation — reading In Cold Blood (by Truman Capote) by Wednesday (A really cool book, if you’ve never read it). I *should* have had more time to read this if my seller from Half.com had sent it on time like she was supposed to (I ordered it the first night of class, thinking I would have a week to read it). I found out on Thursday of last week that she had missed the email and had only just then sent it out. So Saturday I went to Waldenbooks and bought a store-copy. So I now own two copies of a book that I only need to read for the first 3 weeks of class, and I have roughly 3 days to read 377 pages.

Then there’s the house issues. It’s still a mess. There’s furniture, boxes, tools, and odds & ends EVERYWHERE. Appliances regularly decide to migrate, seemingly of their own volition, into the living room, dining room, and basement. I think they might be chasing Frank around. I leave for work in the morning and the Stove is under the hood-vent, and I come home for lunch and it’s in the living room! Maybe it wanted to watch The Food Network on television or something, I don’t know. Melissa has been getting upset lately because of the state of chaos the house is in right now, and while I understand why she’s upset, I feel like there isn’t a whole lot I can do.

And then work. This is probably the biggest headache. For those of you who don’t know yet, and I apologize for not having told you in person, I got the job at IU East. I start on the 25th. Full benefits, Full Time, double my current salary, and a better working environment (part of a TEAM). I put my notice in here at the city, and my last day is the 22nd. I have promised that I would have the overhaul of the city-website revisions complete. ORIGINALLY, I had planned on having this overhaul done by the end of the year, and now I’m trying to get all the work done in two weeks. They have offered to pay me extra to work a few hours here and there after the 22nd, just to get the website finished. I feel a lot of pressure about this, partly from my employer, but also from myself — I don’t want to leave this position without having this project completed, because it’s kind of a summation of everything I’ve learned in the past 2 years. (For nerds: It’s a CSS/DIV based layout, with a MySQL backend using PHP to dynamically render all of the pages. It’s going to be SWEET. I’m also writing a Content-management system so that city employees can add new content via the website itself)

All I want to do is take a nap. Or a shower (we only have a bathtub right now). Or a day off. Something. I feel like there are so many things that need to be done, I’m having a difficult time feeling like they are accomplishable at all! (It’s the circular logic: “I can do A and B but not C… but I need to do C! Ok, I can do B and C but not A, but I need to do A!” ad nauseum) I haven’t been eating very well lately, only sleeping 6 or 7 hours a night (instead of the 8 or 9 my body needs), and I really haven’t had any time to just let my brain recharge (although I *AM* going down to the gaming store at lunch today to play some games with Ryan). I feel like I have no impetus left to start anything.

I’ll get some pictures of everything up here really soon.